i've spent in excess of 15 hours on one lab for embedded. although these hours were mostly spent watching basketball and the like, i can't say that i enjoyed working on that lab for that amount of time. i really wish that the class would just get easier and stop being such a royal pain in the ass with its incessant and abnormal workload. i've got a job. i'm going to graduate. just let the class slide...but then again. i guess it is nice to have a challenge along with communication systems.
in a more philosophical
light: not very often do i feel attached to the lyrics i hear nowadays. my life has gotten so confused recently that i identify least
with the words and more with the beat...just as my life has lost purpose but i rise and fall along with each day's passing. but there's
one song that i've been abnormally attached to since i [actually] purchased an album, the masterplan by oasis. here's a snip of
the album-entitled song:
And then dance if you want to dance
Please brother take a chance...
All we know is that we don't know
How it's gonna be
Please brother let it be...
i wonder sometimes how my life will affect others. i wonder what ways i will influence others - for the better or worse? sometimes i doubt myself. in fact, i doubt myself all too much. as a personality, i am strong and confident - arrogant to the maximum. however, inside, i am weak - full of confusion and error, doubting and inference. there is no questioning this. however, one thing that i have learned over my years at rose is that i am normal. we are all weak. if you were to think i was 100% strong, then you have only seen my arrogance and not seen my humility - which exists only behind mine eyes and doors. it feels as if i haven't shed a real tear in years, but if my eyes didn't well ever so often i would call myself more mechanical than human.
and damn it. why do i have so much homework? i'm out. check out the "europe" page above. leave some comments. keep me preoccupied.