it's odd how listening to this music [skindive] makes me think of nothing more than driving on us120, to and from school and my house back at home. opening the windows. listening to music. thinking about things. driving. the peace of it all...at least until i came back from school and everything was different. it's the subtle changes that get me...like how they turned a stretch of the road from a 45 into a 40. it makes me feel so odd to even realize that i'm becoming distant. and i don't know if i'm ok with it or not...i suppose i'll see how i feel once more this summer.
then there's this spring break, i don't know...perhaps i'll go home. perhaps i won't. really all i want to do is something fun. if i go home, there's not a doubt in my mind that i'll go to chicago for a full day. if not...oh well. it's all about weighing the options. i have to call my brother to see exactly what's going on with him.
so far the best plan i have is to go see my aunt for a couple of days [in TN] and then either drive to richmond or elkhart. after that, well, it's all in the air. if i go to richmond, it's going to be a long drive and i'm not going to be able to do too much really...because my brother matt is too busy there until the end of the week. if i go "home", i would as i said go to chicago for a day or so. then i would also finish learning some things. bob raymond has given up on the computer age due to a large amount of his money being put on the line because of online account fraud...therefore i have acquired yet another machine to work with! as of now, i think i'm going to put some redhat on my old HP, tick, and see what becomes of it. also, i've planned for the acquiring of a new machine [daedalus] that i'll build this summer. oh...i can't wait. you probably wouldn't believe the size of the smile on my face right now...lol
well, i had best get back to work. i just had to write some of this now because i...really don't know. i have to write some paper about this and why it's funny. how i wish that i was in a normal english class where we read a book, discussed symbolisms and the internal struggles that the characters happened through, and then write an essay about something gay. instead, this is just entirely gay...later
ps: enjoy your steak